Monday, April 8, 2019

The reason why I can't help loving magazine





I got a lot of old magazines for $15 from Milton Public Library! It dosen't matter what's lately trends for me. I love magazines but I rarely read magazines because of my smart phone. I'll enjoy the magazine what I haven't read for a while.

When I was in here at first, I often went to Library or Indigo for reading something. I like to read the magazine because I'm not a stadious person. If I read serious book even easier in English, it's also good way for learn about Canadian culture. I can read any page that have my interests. If you can't understand something, the picture in the magazine might  help to read easily. During you enjoy the magazine, maybe you can get some native speakers expression and grammer without big effort.(But don't forget, magazines are just the magazine.:))

However, what a good idea! Saving money, prcaticing English and learning Canadian culture are benefit from magazine. Moreover, reducing garbage for environment and support for local library are as well...win win!

Money!

Sometimes...I'm thinking, I can stop to try to make ends meet all the time, if I got land a great job.. but I don't dream to be loaded. I hope I can keep track of my future and my family. That's why I've been focusing on stick to my budget. I don't want to be in the hole before My husband and I get a land a job. Last weekend, I organized and found out  my clothes look like brand new that I've had for a long time since I got when I worked by Make up Artist. Because I've been trying to curb my spending money. (I wish I buy new clothing for spring..:() Maybe I will strap for cash like not long time later. But I might be planning for downsizing. Housing paying through the nose. Moving that's not blew the money. I will try to do my best. I'll be fine. No wonder what happen to life :))

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Banks driving me crazy in many ways




I rarely have some experience about bank. I'm not math person. My father always said, "You never borrow money and never lend money. Not only you must save money, you must save it at the bank when you have some money." My father is honest man, I just respect him. So, I did during whole my life time before I moved in here. For me, banks meant trustworthy place. 

But My fantasy of  banks have been breaking since I've got information about banks from my husband who is math person since I've married. In Canada, I've used BMO debit card, we've got house mortgage from Scotia bank and one more bank account we've had. My husband tends to share and decide with me about important banks things but I couldn't remember what I heard even though I tried. Maybe.., I could discriminate which is better or not. It's just too complicated for me to remember... It drive me crazy! 

One day, My husband told me, he gave banks a piece of his mind because they didn't give us some money what we suppose to be back. They always responded to be sorry for their mistake but that's all. It still happens sometimes. It's not surprise to me anymore. When it happened I thought, I'm not able to find what's wrong for that and it probably pour money down the drain. I just felt like they were ripping us off. Is there nobody except math and smart person in the world, isn't it? Everybody need the money and almost people work hard for making money. People borrow the money for buying the house to live. Banks treat that money. It means banks treat a kind of life. That's why banks should try to be more clear, be moral and be better. I'll keep watching.




Wednesday, April 3, 2019

About sounds

That's why it's not easy to make correct sounds of English for me

Firstly,
f/h/r/v/z/th/TH/Zh/ow/o/Er/Ar/Or/ ^/, These sounds are not in my first language. So it's difficult to pronounce for me when I speak English. I automatically make sounds as like my first language even though I try to keep awareness for correct English sounds.

Secondly,
I realized just now that it was wrong what majority of English sounds what I learned and got used to make sounds till now without doubt. I just learned English approximately 25-30 years ago. Nowadays, my county's many people are into English education for future. They've believed that they have a good chance for successful life if they are good at English. So I can easily see even kids sound like native speaker in my country. But it wasn't mine. I should've doubt my English sounds!

lastly,
I couldn't focused on my sounds yet because I've been in rush to make sentence for speaking before I forgot what I wanted to say first.

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Task2 edited


 task2


This story was happened 7 years ago. I didn't see exactly what happened. I just took a break  for a moment.

My son really messed up everything all day long when we visited my mother's house. It ended up, my son broke little statue of  Mother Mary that my mother got from her mother when my mother got married. My mother has loved it for a long time of almost 50 years. That reminds her of her mother. She was so upset and furious. It looked she was holding a grudge against my son, forever...I was so sorry for breaking mother's most favorite thing. I tried to make up for my son's mistake and repair it, I decided to present new clothe for mom and we didn't visit to my mom's house till she call me first.

Fortunately, there is still statue Mother Mari on the mom's side table for praying. She already forgave us before I even give her present. But I've felt sorry for that day when I saw ugly statue Mother Mari. I love you, Mom!

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

My life story

Hello, I'm Joon.

I love writing, speaking, singing, drawing, all kind of beauty, etc. I'm the person love to express what I felt. I've been planing be a blogger for a long time but I don't want to make Korean blog first. I didn't expect to come soon but it just happen to me and I'm so excited. 


Well, I start a story about me. It might be pretty long. Are you ready?



I'm from South Korea. I've been married for 15 years. I have two kids, oldest is son is 10 years old and youngest is daughter is 6 years old.






I've been living in Canada since Jan.26.2016. I moved in Milton from Mississauga 2 years ago. I expected a lot for living in Canada with a nervous feeling about uncertain future. Because Canada has all what I've dreaming words as like a freedom, fair, progressive, good quality air, amazing nature, etc. Everything is better than my country. Canada is one of my ideal worlds. I just was afraid of my future without my mother tongue. I thought it might be a nice chance for challenge of my second brand new life. 


when I was young,

I was a Artist. My major is sculpture in University but I also an actress member of theater club. Firstly I want be an actress when I was high school, my parents never allowed that. I compromised with them because they promise to me, if I will go to University where they wanted, they were not going to care about my any activities...so I nailed that. I started theater club as soon as go to University. ...I gotta say, I'm not good at my major because I was so busy to be concentrated on my theater working...anyway everything leads to the Art!:) We made a play about human rights twice every single year during University whole time. 




I was working on 

At my graduated Exhibition - I wanted to express about under the press women as like me

Curtain call, I'm the third the left. 



I kept doing more for 3 years after I graduated University at professional stage. About that time, I was into the Feminism as well. The theater world's reality didn't agree with me. It didn't directly happen to me anything but I was sure what I couldn't stand that even though my dream won't be true. Eventually I saw News from my country last year. The Me Too movement started on theater world as well. I did deep breath. That was one of the reason I moved to feminist crew from the theatrical world. Then I worked for feminism. My activist crew were planed and produced 'Festival of period', it was kind of concert for women's right. We wanted to provide chance for that women speak out about women's right through women be enjoy, be fun, be excited, be gallant in the Man's world. Many people attended the concert, women student union, professor, singer, entertainer, LGBT, news paper, even some good man, all kind of feminist was together. It was meaningful and successful working.  I can't forget that moment. It still held.  

After Two years, I decided to be a Makeup Artist..it sounds weirdo? Feminist become a Makeup Artist! But I felt tired unstable life and I was uncomfortable about that my parent push to me marriage for stable life. I didn't want to dependent life under the man. I've saw women easily lost voice with Marriage. I believed that independent finances will make sure my right. For me, Makeup Artist is the easiest way to make more money than before. I was natural born about that I like to make pretty, I enjoy to meet the new person and I was a Artist already. It wasn't wrong. I got a certification with the top at Makeup Academy. Although my first position was a part time seller at department store but I constantly tried to do my best, I was able to upgrade quickly. I became the top Artist in my company. I worked for promote brand, educate staff, manage customer, magazine and advertisement shoot, fashion show, body painting show... I was a constructor in Makeup Academy and college as well. It was a lot of fun Makeup Artist working but as you know, there were difficulties also.(where is no difficulty?) However I was in a Makeup Artist for 8 years before I given birth my first baby. I had a business trip to Japan and Thailand for Magazine working during last month of pregnancy. Everybody supposed I was back to work as soon as baby born. 


I visited for training in Paris' head office.


But, my baby changed whole my life. I got a call several times for working that was good chance for being successful and luxury life but I didn't go. I really enjoyed a lot my makeup working before but it was over for me. I just did well in Makeup Artist role. I wish I lived as like me more and I wish I could live for more valuable and meaningful life for me, for my kids and for better world.



15 years ago, It was so fun but it was enough.


I had some idea next my dream when I lived in my country. I was into psychology during I took care my baby. I read many book and text about psychology for kids. On that time, I figured out what is my basically problem during life time. I found that and then I was thinking about Art therapist. 





And now, 


I know the past has passed. I need to remind that I was who, I did what because I've lost my dream since I moved in Canada. I've been dark side for a long time since through out Honeymoon stage. I was extremely shocked. It's too high wall of language that I expected. I never imagine like that. Maybe it's better. If I knew about my Shocked stage how could I come here.



I'm still wondering around somewhere. I'm still look for something. I've opened about all of possibility. It's not so easy. But I try to remember when my first day of school last March. I told myself, 'I don't have to do much, so please don't stop moving forward for anything. Don't think about what I lost. I'm going to be okay if I can speak anything, I can hear anything, I will be satisfied. If I meet my mentor or role model in Canada, it will be perfect. You know? I got all now. I'm thankful for my teacher, friendly my classmates, my school and Canada everyday. Add to this I can write like this without my son's helping although it spent so many time.:) 


Have a good day!


Monday, March 25, 2019